Those don't really work, I'm not into one half of a ship needing to apologize (and it doesn't suit their canon relationship either).

It's basically... they want to change the system or escape, and if neither is possible they prefer to die together rather than one surviving alone, and once imprisoned actually feel it's some degree of victory that they forced the oppressive authority to imprison them both and treat them as equals.

Oh, would "private body worship as secret act of rebellion against outside authority" be clear enough?